so i watch this show called Misfits.. and the main character reminds me alot of myself.. except he can say everything he thinks and i cant… and most of the time people on the show just stare at him and call him an idiot but he finds it hilarious.. and thats just me all the time..

i would actually say more but too many people would find it offensive… but half of it i say anyways just cause…

but any how i think its time to just say it cause fuck it.. i only live once.. and i doubt anyone has thought of things like this before lol

stay tunedddd

here are a few things i want to accomplish and get done, places i wanna be at by the time this year ends.. i have 3.5 months to do it in.

(these are in no order of importance nor priority)

• pass my nclex test for my LVN
• Get IV certified for school
• get a car
• get down to 147 in weight, 155 if i wanna look bulky (cant decide yet. current weight as of 5 mins ago 185   fuckin alcohol.)
• record 30 songs… (not that hard if u think about it.. i have more than half already done written or started writing)
• add more ink. im thinking add a lil to my chest, and start with my outer left arm. i got this crazy idea  going to prolly cost me a pretty penny but damn when its done it will be crazy.. 
• finish writing the foundation for my screen play. 

so thats the gist of it.. ig ot a few more ideas and wat not but i dont wanna over load myself.. lets hope this shit works

more now than any other age in my life… he calls me twice a day to send him his emails.

mind u he is incarcerated and lives on the other side of the country

from 04-06 i seen him at least twice a month.. he was locked up in a prison only 45 mins away… and was on the way to san diego.. so i would stop alot to say hi.

before that when he was home i wouldnt nearly see him or talk to him as much. and the fact that he only calls cause he needs something is annoying as hell

sorry carry on

For every wrong I ever done I try to do 2 rights

To write is all i ever wanted to do, that and the impossible

Ive seen hospital beds full of innocent kids

Who never did shit but live

And u still wanna ask me if I think god exist? Shit

Ya right, yea right

Last night an angel visited me in my dreams

And told me I could be anything that I think

I agreed but my angels are nothing but voices inside of me

Its only when I listen to them am I free

• i believe in those around me, in those i love
• i do believe in love at first sight
• i do believe that all should be treated equal
• however i dont believe we are all made equally. i mean look at retarded kids then look at lebron james… just not right
• i do believe people have the power to change
• BUT MOST IMPORTANTLY I BELIEVE I MYSELF

• i dont believe in heaven nor hell
• i dont believe in adam & eve, noahs arc, or any other bible story
•   i do believe the bible is full of stories and fables to help you in life, i dont believe they are rules and the know all end all
• i believe ignorance IS bliss  
• i believe not all priest are rapist, not all strippers are whores, not all girls are hoes and not all guys are dogs
• i believe Floyd Mayweather is prolly the best fighter i have ever seen from a natural fight to a skilled fighter and as a thinker in the ring. i have never seen one better. however he is far from the fastest and by far not the most hardest hitting
• i dont believe that every girl that doesnt have a father present has daddy issues or is a whore. strong mothers raise beautiful women
• i believe that we are judged by how we look and the company we keep more than wats on a resume
• i believe that a good amount of alcohol can make u a better person and can help u be urself
• i do believe too much alcohol and make too much of ur primitive side come to life… and its always better to keep that side asleep
• i believe time heals MOST wounds
• i believe not everything can be forgiven
• i dont believe in fate, destiny, religion, holy spirits, ghost or trolls
• i do believe in karma and your soul
• i dont believe Socrates ever existed, as well as jesus
• i dont believe anyone will read this enough to care

1. i love boxing, but i cant fight or havent really been in a real fight or even one with gloves on in like 6-7 years
2. i talk alot about coke and make plenty of jokes about it but never tried it and never will
3. i never go anywhere with out my backpack with my note books and i pod in it. its like my man purse, but i feel naked as hell with out it
4. i never notice how short i really am. other people see it but not myself. i feel the same as everyone else
5. im messy as hell, but i dont think im dirty. i have clothes everywhere, but i know which ones for the most part are clean or not
6. i think im fuckin hilarious… but i dont know too many people with a similar sense of humor as me… i am the type to laugh at shit when the whole room is quiet
7. i really dont like drugs. and i hate those i love on them. i understand a few actually need them to exist. but i hate them. and when i see someone i love do drugs a part of them dies inside of me
8. im obsessed with shoes, hats, shirts, and watches.. but since i have been broke the last few years i havent bought shit… at one point i prolly had 20+ hats, 30+ shoes, 40+shirts and 3 watches worth over 6 grand all in my rotation at one point… crazy how shit has changed =\
9. i never study as much as i say i do, but i study way more than i ever have… so it kinda works out
10. im more observant than you think. and i notice everything. i always look around, i always see how people  are acting, walking or acting. but at the same time. i never notice anything